Silent Night

I have always loved Christmas music. It fills my heart and home with such peace and joy that I can't wait for Thanksgiving to be over so I can play it all the time. I get away with playing it from time to time throughout the year but not as much as I would like. Silent Night has always been one of my favorites. Seven years ago I started having a hard time singing this song. I never really tapped into why until last year. One of the ways we have described the night our precious Ammon was born was silent. He only lived a few short minutes, he never made a sound and yes he was born at night. My sister and I love to sing together, especially Christmas music. Today someone asked me if we would be singing and where so they could come listen. She also asked if she could make the request to have us sing Silent Night. Every time I sing this song I can't stop the tears from flowing, but this year I am going to try. One of the ways we have described the night our precious Ammon was born is silent. He only lived a few short minutes, he never made a sound and yes he was born at night. We believe he was too perfect to have to live on earth and go through the trials of life and that all he needed was his mortal body. We view his "Silent Night" as a "Holy Night" and while all may not have been bright, we were very calm. That does not mean we weren't greiving but there was a calmness about the room, especially once the doctors and nurses left and Jess and I were alone. Ammon was our "holy infant" and it was a "tender" experience and now our baby boy "sleeps in heavenly peace". I know so many of you who talk about your babies who are born sleeping. They "Sleep in Heavenly Peace" and yes it is a "Silent Night" when they are born. There are no immediate cries and squeals and in our case most of the doctors and nurses said nothing. It is very silent. I think this is why I have such a hard time singing this song. But I do remind myself it is a song about our Savior and that He is caring for our son and loving our son in Heaven until the time we get to meet him there. How grateful I am for the birth of our Savior and Redeemer, Jesus Christ and for my personal belief in Him and in the plan of salvation and for my knowledge of families being together forever. I know so many of you come from different faiths and beliefs, but I truly believe that our precious babies are being cared for and watched over by Christ and Angels in heaven. And that our babies are watching over us; Angel Babies!!